I have spent quit a bit of time over the past few years looking back at my life. Trying to figure out where things went sideways and wondering why some things didn't go the way I wanted them to.
What these problems and the answers are, is irrelevant.
I identified a few problems and tried to figure them out, guess what, it happened in the past and there is nothing that can be done about it. I'm not saying we don't need to look back over our lives, sometimes just pinpointing an issue fixes it or helps to understand why you feel the way you do. That is half of the problem solved.
However, at some point all of this introspection can turn into a pity party and that my friends, is counter productive.
Maybe someone in your life wasn't what you thought they should be. Guess what? They may have been the best they could be. They may not have understood your needs, or weren't capable of being what you needed. Were you what they needed or thought you should be? Most people can only be or do what they know how to be.
To those people in my life have have bored to tears with my self pity and whining, I am truly sorry. I have learned that the only person I have the right to be disappointed in is me. I am the only person that can control what I am and what I do.
To my long suffering husband who gallantly put up with my introspection (pity party) thanks for your patience, support and abiding love. I thank God for him everyday, okay most days.
Thanks to family members who knew my sadness and anger and always helped me with their prayers and for just loving me. Your love help get me through this. It is good to feel whole again.
To those of you who have checked in here from time to time, I thank you just for being you!
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